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I have been working on awareness of my own automation. I was working on being more aware of the I’s that I slip into at work. I’s that I need to do my job. But it would be nice if I had more control of my use of these I’s instead of them just taking over in reaction to a situation at work.

Note: I’s are the roles that we play in our lives, for example, parent, employee, boss, lover, friend, etc. For more information, I recommend reading Gurdjieff or his student P.D. Ouspensky. Another way of describing this is these are programs we run. Now people can run a lot of program and many of them are complicated. But they are programs none the less. Eliminating some of these programs frees up some “processing time” for better spiritual results.

As I was walking through the building people always say “hi” or “how’s it going?” Some of these people I know well others I don’t know at all. There are many, many people in the building that I work.

So I was paying attention to my body and my own automation and someone greeted me this morning. I completely fell back asleep, forgot my awareness. I answered with my own automated greeting and I forgot that I was practicing awareness.

A short time later I saw a blue shirt and I woke up again, “oh, yeah. I was practicing awareness.”

Note: I use different triggers to wake my up, to make me aware again. Many things could be used for a trigger, things like geometry, plants, etc.

And I realized that slipping into that state of automatic interactions with people made me fall asleep. Using automated responses is just like blinking your eyes. It resets you back to the Do vibration.

Note: The Do is the current vibration of planet, as in Do Rey Me Fa So La… I am trying to separate from the influence of the planet and raise myself to a higher vibration.

I told myself not to let this happen the next time someone said hi. Being aware of the problem makes it easier to combat.

As I continued to interact with people, I was watching myself. I learned two ways to remain awake while interacting with people. The first is to give an unexpected response. Example: “how is it going?” “the weather sucks, my job sucks, life sucks…” This response causes others to wake up a little. Now they are paying attention to you, wondering what is different. But when I’m doing my spiritual work at work I usually don’t want people paying attention to me.

The second way I found is to give an automated response, but do it by choice. Choose a response from a list. Don’t give your usual automated response. If someone says “hi, how’s it going?” and I usually say “Good. Busy.” then I can consciously change my response to something else. I could say “Not good. Falling behind” or “Good. More busy than yesterday; less busy than tomorrow”…

Using my consciousness to consciously pick my response kept me awake after the interaction was over.